Honestly, sometimes I think I shouldn’t interact via any sort of digital media. At least not with people that I love.
Because I suck at it – I really do. When the “tone” is lost, for example via text message, I come across terribly.
Now, the most important person in my world doesn’t want to speak to me, because what I was trying to say went horribly, horribly wrong. Without the ability to re-clarify instantly, or gentle a tone, or ANYTHING like that, I caused pain. Which is kind of ironic, because I did so in the process of trying to explain how much I was hurting over not being able to do something.
In the end, it doesn’t matter why it happened – but simply that it did happen. I hurt someone I love. And that’s the kind of shit that has me crying over my computer and wanting to avoid human contact forever.
I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry. 🙁